At last, I can breath a sigh of relief...phew...I finally feel as though I am on top of my college work at last. Since loosing my mum in October, for obvious reasons I have had the concentration span of a gnat. If I'm going to be completely honest, if it wasn't for my fab hubby Matt and my gorgeous son Matthew, I think I would have pretty much cracked up by now. Not only did her passing knock me flat on my back, it bought back all the memories of when Dad died too. I did debate as to whether I could continue on with the course as I had no motivation, no drive and no passion left. It was a struggle to get out of bed each morning, to eat, drink, even to breathe. I don't know how, or why, but this past week has seen the haze that has surrounded me for the past 4 months begin to lift. I'm so glad I didn't decide to leave the course, as I know my parents wouldn't have wanted me to do that. Somehow, through the stress of completing my last essay, something 'clicked' again. I'm getting that passion and drive back. I'm more determined than ever to succeed, to pass this degree with Honours, to wear that gown and mortar-board - for me, for Matt, for Matthew, but most of all, for my fantastic parents!
Gosh...study skills.....it seems an age away. I've just been going through my folder for this topic and am finding it quite strange reading some of the analytic comments I'd made about the first few lessons. It's as though I'm reading someone else's work. Also, looking at the time chart that we had to fill in has also given me a bit of a 'giggle'. I think it worked out I was doing about 3 hours housework a day and (during that week) about 1 hours study...ha ha...how times have changed. I dont think I'd like to admit how much, or little housework is done by me now, and as for the study - it's certainly more than 1 hour!!!
This video has thrown me into a bit of a quandary as how to approach the essay for Lin. I think our discussion afterwards raised numerous valid points that could be incorporated into the body of the essay - I'm just not sure how to tackle it yet, mmmm....need a bit of a think.
The film itself was extremely emotive and I can't understand how these organisations could justify what they were doing to these terribly vulnerable people. I've made no bones about my views on religion, and although I respect others choices in religious matters, it baffles me how if God (whoever she or he may be), is the creator of us all, and is such a wondrous person, his / her followers can inflict such pain and suffering in His or Her name? Maybe it is just my ignorance on the subject showing through, but I just can't get my head around it.
I LOVE THE SNOW!!!!!! I must agree with Clare about wanting an extra day to play. Unfortunately missed most of the fun early on on Monday as I wasn't too well, but definitely made up for it in the afternoon. Went sledging, snowballing - even attempted to build an igloo (Matthew desperately wanted one). I would like to comment though on all the negative reports today in the papers and on TV about people not getting in too work. I completely understand the economic climate at the moment, and yes, financially the UK did suffer as a direct cause of people being unable to get into work (to the tune of 1.2 billion I believe), but families were at home together - mostly having fun in the snow - kids were not sitting in front of TV sets / computers / games consoles - they were out in the fresh air playing in the snow, many couldn't use their cars - so they walked places...in the snow. See where I'm going with this? I just feel that in this financially testing and worrying time (far many), an unexpected day off with our loved ones, having fun, is not such a bad thing after all is it?
I didn't catch it in the papers (as i do have the habit of forgetting to buy them), but have seen on the news today that the first part of a four part documentary will be broadcast tonight called 'girls and boys alone', or something to that effect. Its a 'social experiment' and two groups of 8 - 11 year olds were basically left to live alone for two weeks. There has been a considerable amount of controversy over it so far, so I'm going to tune in and take a look for myself. Its on channel 4 at 9pm. Should be an interesting watch.